To Love or To Hate...? That is the question....

Can anybody tell or describe to me what is it like to be truly in love? How does it feel? If its a feeling... or is it just this thing whenever you felt some strange pressure happening in your heart or at the pit of your stomach (so called butterflies or something like that) when that certain person is near by? I'm truly curious....

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How does it feel to hate? Does feeling angry ... extremely angry be considered as hate? Does that pain in the heart considered as hate? Does being indifferent can be considered as hate?

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Whats this so call 'love/hate' relationship about? I know love (but not 'in-love'.. maybe.. or was it? might be just a crush?). Why would you hate the person you love? Oh! Another thing, why would you hurt the one you love? I don't understand that. Why can't we just love and love and love? I know to love does not mean you have to be blind... You should be sensible and aware of what is going on.

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Lots of things been going through my mind. From work to accommodations, to emotions, to life, to children, to plans, to financial, to stability, to work, to having my own home, to ... so many. I've learnt through life that certain things, we have to give a little bit more time for it to happen or to get results. Have to be patient and diligent. Like everyone, I am impatient. I guess, I'm counting my days. Time is running out, and there are still so many things to be done or to achieve or to experience.

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Mood swings.. is one of my worst companion in life. One minute I'm at the top of the world, the next I feel so daft, after that felt like I can and should express myself thoroughly, and then wished I've never open my mouth. One day my brain is working at its best, the next its all mush, I can't even focus properly. Right now I feel like screaming 'INTRIGUE ME! INTRIGUE ME! Intrigue my mind! Intrigue my being!'.... hmmmm...

~Ever felt like to just pack up and leave?~